Monthly Archives: March 2012

The Best In Me

I can only be me. I can only speak of things that I’ve experienced and witnessed. Each time I post my heart is going out to any woman going through it. I can only hope and pray that this reaches someone who feels like they can’t relate to anyone. I think everyone deserves to be happy.

I know what it feels like to be surrounded by people and feel very alone. I know what its like to have your back against the wall and constantly feel like you have to fight and defend yourself. I know what its like to struggle and get comfortable with just getting by. This is a depressing state of mind…

What I didn’t know was how to cut the negative energy out of my life. When I needed help I didn’t know how to ask for it. I was very tired of feeling this way… But I still didn’t know how to get past it because pride was standing in my way.

Better yet, I couldn’t look past it and see what I was good at and what made me shine to get me through my dark moments. Most of all maintaining my faith and confidence and truly believing that I can get through hard times.

I like to see results and I can quit things cold turkey I can learn a new trait in a snap. I can even pick up choreography by just watching and kill it on the dance floor! But learning love and growing in life (mind and spirit) doesn’t happen over night. You don’t get it by just watching on the sidelines, you have to experience it to learn and grow.

I don’t regret my past, the decisions I’ve made or anyone I’ve crossed paths with. It didn’t make me but it has taught me valuable lessons and I’ve grown from it. I will continue to do so as long as I’m living. I’ve learned recently that my past will always be my past and the people who are from it might have to stay there with it if they’re not on the same page as me (I might not be on the same page as them). It’s all a part of moving forward and closing chapters.

My faith is restored and in tact I don’t look to please anyone but God. I can only be what he has created me to be. Me. Smart, silly, sweet and sometimes snappy me.

Like my dad says be the best you! Nobody does it better!

Stay true,

Madam Bush

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