Happy New Year everybody!!! LOL I know I’m late. Would you believe me if I said I was still reflecting?
Well that’s what’s been going on with me. I’m so amazed at how much has change in the course of ONE year! I made a lot of changes for the better.
I’m more confident and secure with myself.
It feels good.
Since October 2013 doors have opened for me. I mean out of nowhere! If I could describe how I feel, I would have to say it’s like someone planting their foot on cat’s tail. Then, suddenly they lift their foot and you take off!
It’s frustrating and painful trying to break free from something holding you back.
I use to think that you had to go on this long journey in life to truly find yourself, but as I learn more and more about myself I’ve found that I was holding myself back from the growth that I’m experiencing now.
Some times you think you’re not good enough.
You think you don’t deserve the best
Sometimes you think you’re going to lose
Growth from within shines through for the world to see… And just like that…
You WIN! You win big. You win something priceless.
You start to look at things/people differently. You start to look at life and love differently. You start to understand that your obstacles and struggles aren’t in vain.
I found peace. I found so much peace when I stopped trying to control everything. It’s extremely hard to let go and trust others. So, I started putting my focus on God and asking for guidance and protection. Moving forward, I saw a lot of people’s true colors. It was very enlightening, but I won’t front it was kind of unsettling at first.
“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” John 14.27
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16.33
I spoke to a friend of mine whose dog just passed away; I wanted to make sure she was doing okay. We talked about how people can come across in a negative way and not even realize it.
Sidebar: Have you ever talked with someone while in a happy state and a few negative remarks later, you wished you would have kept your mouth closed?
My homie gave me the best advice, and that was to pray for enlightenment. Not for me, but for others.
We often give out these “That’s just how I am” or “You know how I am” passes to excuse our actions (or lack there of). It’s like an excuse to hurt others or to keep making the same mistakes, but who really benefits from this.
You may be who you are (all unique, different, and special), but the moment you start hurting others (and rubbing them the wrong way) then it has nothing to do with WHO you are and has everything to do with your actions and we are ALL responsible for our actions.
It may be who you are, but that doesn’t make it ok. I try my best to treat others the way I want to be treated but I mess up. We all mess up. What counts is what you do/ don’t do after you mess up. It’s not about what’s right or what’s wrong or your intentions it’s about respecting the other person’s feelings. It’s respecting someone’s opinion. It’s agreeing to disagree.
It’s important to have an open heart/mind in life but it’s just as important to be aware of what you’re letting in. People will suck the good energy out of you if you let them.
It’s your responsibility to take care of yourself in every way. That means being a little selfish. You know what’s best for you in regards to love, family, friends, work, and life in general.
You may be on the outside looking in at my life like it’s one big crazy mess. I bet you know exactly what you would do if you were in my shoes, so until that day presents itself, please just pray for me. Pray that I reach a new level of awareness to see what you see so easily. You can lead a horse to water but you can’t make her drink it;). I make my own decisions!
Sidebar: Tamar Braxton’s song Pieces speaks to me! Love that song. That song was made for me:)
“I ain’t even gonna play with something I can’t keep… I want the whole thang, or forget about me” – Tamar Braxton Pieces
*flips hair* I’m going to get what I deserve! Where my King at!?
Have a wonderfully blessed weekend everyone! God is LOVE!